journal entry #2

Spotify, play "where sky becomes sea by palace"

Maybe, just maybe, we overcomplicate things.

Life is pretty simple when you drop all the pessimistic thought patterns.

“What if nothing works out?”, but what if it does?

Just move. Fear keeps you stagnant and unfortunately, time doesn’t slow down just because you do. It doesn’t wait for you to get things right or to figure everything out, it just keeps going, and it’s up to you to stay in the same torturous cycle or to finally take a step forward into the unknown.

By grace, I’ve been given the chance to start, again. To have options, to make decisions.. to choose, freely. I didn’t think I’d be given a do-over, but I was. All the good I thought was lost feels possible.. attainable. My dreams, my passions, my creative outlook is all coming back to me. I find myself responding to life with a childlike wonder.. giggling over the silliest, smallest things.. simply because I feel safe enough to. There’s no more danger, no more judgement, no more bad guy lurking in the shadows, just genuine softness. I feel safe enough to be me, again.

I want to dedicate this piece to someone who came to me at a very, very strange time. You were everything I needed to get my footing back. Whether this is brief or lifelong, I want you to know that in the end, I’ll always think of you as my sweet, new beginning. (il mio dolce nuovo inizio)

Thank you for showing me that love doesn't have to hurt to be present.

xoxo, clem.